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First, I would like to thank you
for being here to answer questions. It must help a lot of people. I find it very
painful to live in a homophobic world. I understand, admire and respect people
who have to cope with this everyday.
I'm very confused about
my sexual orientation. My confusion starts when I am attracted to a woman. I
don`t seem to get attracted to men even if I try, but when I get aroused all I
can think about is having sex with a man. When I act on that, it is not
enjoyable, but it is a huge relief. Then I try to be heterosexual or asexual
for a time, but the cycle starts again. I would be glad to be heterosexual or
asexual, but I am very confused by these compulsions. I would be most grateful
if you could help me understand what is going on.
I'm sad that you're in so much pain. If I
understand you correctly, you are a woman who would like to be attracted to men,
but you keep finding yourself attracted to women. When that happens, you have
sex with a man in an effort to be heterosexual, but don't find it enjoyable.
It's not unusual for people who find
themselves attracted to members of the same gender to try to make those feelings
go away by having sex with members of the opposite sex. In fact, many people get
heterosexually married in an effort to make those feelings go away.
Unfortunately, some women can suppress their attractions for other women (and
similarly for men who are attracted to men), but that doesn't mean the feelings
I hope you will reach out to someone who
can help you make peace with your feelings. I suggest you contact a nearby gay
and lesbian community center or, if you're in the U.S., your state psychological
association and ask for names of gay-friendly therapists. You might also try
contacting PFLAG (Parents, Families and Friends of
Lesbians and Gays), which is usually a good source of support. What's important
is to find people who will support you no matter what feelings you have.