Depressive situations as well as depression, mania and bipolar disorders.http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/list.php?68Sat, 21 Nov 2009 03:08:42 -0800 Phorum 5.2.7 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,117383,117383#msg-117383 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,117383,117383#msg-117383I have recently signed up on this web site because I need help with a mental problem and I do not have access to professional help or medication.
I was diagnosed as manic depressive about 30 years ago, I'm now 66. and at the start I was able to get the treatment I required but since about 6 years ago those options were no longer available to me. The psychiatrist treating me died and because of the situation in the country where I live, Zimbabwe, Africa, I have not been able to get another suitable therapist, and therefore I cannot access the medication I need. On top of that I am an alcoholic of long standing but
have been able to get into remission from that and have been sober for some years now, but I think that I may be heading for trouble.
At the moment I am in a manic state and it seems to be getting worse and lasting longer than before, It sounds ridiculous, even to me, that I am afraid of feeling so good, but I am beginning to lose control over my emotions. When I'm on my own , watching a movie for instance, I feel very tearful and want to cry for no reason. This is triggered when I see nice people doing nice things for others., or a puppy licking a childs face, like they do. I'm afraid it's getting out of hand.
I'm a grown man, supposed to be all 'macho' and I want to cry. I know that the sensible thing do do is not watch movies. but I live alone with no friends or family to talk to and I get some sort of companionship from the people in the movies. Sounds bizarre. and it is and I do not want it like this andt therefore, after reading the posts of LOSTANDHOPEFUL and ANNETTE on this site I decided that I should ask if anyone has some advise for me]]> ERIC G.K. Depression & BipolarWed, 11 Nov 2009 00:14:00 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,117380,117380#msg-117380 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,117380,117380#msg-117380 Annette Depression & BipolarTue, 20 Oct 2009 16:53:53 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,117135,117135#msg-117135 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,117135,117135#msg-117135 lostandhopeful Depression & BipolarFri, 16 Oct 2009 04:26:59 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116856,116856#msg-116856 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116856,116856#msg-116856
This sounds naive, but I wonder if my laziness is a sign of deep depression. I don't feel sad, just totally unmotivated. Oversleeping is an indicator, I realize. I am also diabetic, and my blood sugar isn't well controlled. I don't drink or have any other addiction problems, except possibly reading. If I get into a book, I am almost unable to stop until it's finished.

Of course, some of the answer is exercise, manage my glucose level, and just get off my butt, but I keep procrastinating on anything larger than going to the restroom when I must. Rest of the family just thinks I'm lazy, and I realize I'm both lazy and selfish, but there just seems to be more to this situation. And the final question is, if one of you comes up with the answer, will I actually take action or just procrastinate or rationalize that too? HELP!]]> Bullet Depression & BipolarFri, 07 Aug 2009 00:06:21 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116853,116853#msg-116853 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116853,116853#msg-116853that tracks results for up to three weeks. While I think the home monitor is a great guide, I'm not sure I trust its accuracy. Does anyone know if home blook pressure monitoring kits are considered accurate, and are there any operation tips you can suggest to improve accuracy? Thanks!]]> marinameggy Depression & BipolarSun, 05 Jul 2009 19:09:14 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116852,116852#msg-116852 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116852,116852#msg-116852
Cosmetic Dentist San Francisco]]> thomas45 Depression & BipolarSun, 05 Jul 2009 13:20:19 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116844,116844#msg-116844 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116844,116844#msg-116844 marinameggy Depression & BipolarThu, 23 Jul 2009 21:30:22 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116828,116828#msg-116828 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116828,116828#msg-116828 Gary Depression & BipolarSun, 02 Aug 2009 11:08:41 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116650,116650#msg-116650 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116650,116650#msg-116650 Dini Depression & BipolarSun, 05 Jul 2009 13:03:24 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116507,116507#msg-116507 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116507,116507#msg-116507Trackmymood.com offers free and anonymous (no login or purchase required) proven self-assessment tests for depression, mania and anxiety, and provides a tracking form so that visitors can track their moods over time and share with their doctors.

I've heard many bipolar patients are asked to track their moods between doc visits. Maybe this will help?]]> johnnywhee Depression & BipolarSun, 05 Jul 2009 19:27:59 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116393,116393#msg-116393 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116393,116393#msg-116393Pretty much i am wondering if i should see a psychologist in order to check some stuff out. Well my worries are the following. When i was 16, i had a case of being in love with some girl, and i had a very hard time trusting her, and i felt cheated, at the same time i did not wanna be unfair with her, and blame her for stuff i had no proof off. So overtime i lived with doubts, and guilt for maybe attributing things to her, that she did not deserve. When i tried to talk it out with her, she refused to do so, which didnt rly help things out. I am over her now... i am 21 turning 22 now. But at those times, i spent about 2 years, in great mental turmoil.. i did not talk to that girl for like 1 year out of anger, while at the same time telling myself that i loved her... was.... a very confusing time. Well after her though, ive felt a bunch of negative effects in my life, which i dunno if i can blame on what happened, or if it has come due to other reasons. I have picked up watching pornography on a regular basis, and feel guilty about it. Also, ever since entering university abt 3 years ago, i have lost a lot of determination, many times i just dont feel like doing anything. I dont wanna study, or do work. I have always been an online gamer, but i feel that it greatly intensified after that incident, and now i feel that whenever i feel down, i just go play games for hours and hours in order to forget abt all the projects i have to work on, and to forget abt life in general. I am not sure if i actually had depression at those times, or if i am still dealing with some sort of depression, but i know that one symptom of depression is lack of will to carry on with daily tasks, and well that is exactly what i feel. My life in general is a good life, i have great parents, who have never abused me in anyway. I also have not been abused by siblings, or any other person. I dont think i have a psychiatric problems. I do think however that i should have these things checked out, cuz they are bothering me from carrying on with a normal lifestyle. My parents are often frustrated at my lack of effort towards my studies, and this is really starting to bother me.

Well what i wanna know is. Do i need to go see a psychologist in order to address some of these matters, or are there just the normal comings and goings of life?]]> Connavar Depression & BipolarSat, 18 Apr 2009 11:53:24 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116377,116377#msg-116377 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116377,116377#msg-116377I talked to my psychologist, and she advised me to search the web.
It's the first time I could actually bring the subject up to her.
I do feel ashamed. I'm almost fifty years old and this has been going on since I was a teen.
I don't get to see my psychiatrist until the middle of May.
The thing is, I keep burning myself as a way to releive the pain I feel.
It's only getting worse. It seems that the harder I try to stop, the harder it is to stop.
I just seem to get angrier.
Beginning with childhood trauma, then horrible relationships, then the loss of my father that I was extremely close to. Then, I got married and thought things were finally going to turn around. But, then my husband went to prison a year after we were married for something that happened before I met him. Then I got layed off work a week later, then lost my son a week after that.
I know things could be worse, and I'm sure they are for alot of people, but I don't think I'm a strong enough person to deal with it all.
I've gotten sick since my son passed. My doctor says he thinks everything hit me all at once.
I haven't been able to return to work, doctors orders. Denied by social security. Stuck in a horrible marriage.
I'm only stuck for financial reasons, and I know that's horrible of me.
I don't know what else to do. All I know is how to take away the pain for awhile by substituting.
I'm a miserable wreck. Please tell me what I can do to stop.
I'm lost.]]> driftaway Depression & BipolarSun, 05 Jul 2009 19:22:33 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116288,116288#msg-116288 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116288,116288#msg-116288
NAMI California put this up on their website. This is current news, dated April 7th. Stunning ignorance. Stunning display of a total lack of basic human empathy and the simple common courtesy and dignity that should be afforded every human being. Exposing children to this bigotry and lack of humanity (for that is what it is IMHO) is unconscionable and inexcusable, particularly as they are encouraged to "participate" in it. God forbid those children themselves should ever have a mental health issue or problem after being taught this sort of prejudice - highly unlikely they'd go to donut chompin' pops to reveal such a problem and seek help after having breakfast with dear old dad in this little shop of horrors.

The shop is Psycho Donut's in Cambell, California and has a website which can be found by googling. What's REALLY sad? All the wonderful reviews it is getting on site's like Yelp by people who just don't get it. Shop of horrors/haunted/fun house theme is one thing; adding a mental illness theme is entirely another matter IMHO.

May this donut shop's fat fry.

I am sure many, many of us here have encountered this stigma. I know I have. And I know health insurers take advantage of it; they count on the stigma to keep us from fighting back when they deny claims and so forth. I know I am not the only one here who has fought that battle more than once.

But this is stunning, I can think of no other word (well, I can; infuriating and a few others come to mind), particularly the way children are "used" (and I think that is the correct word for it):




"NAMI California Voices Outrage At Thoughtless Entrepreneurs
Donut company reinforces stigma and sterotypes, insulting consumers and families.
From NAMI California by Staff Writer, April 7, 2009


NAMI California has voiced its opposition to pastry shop operators in Campbell who are marketing "Psycho Donuts" in an effort to drum up business by fortifying a discriminatory stigma against people with mental illness and their families. The shop owners, according to their website, have "taken the neighborhood donut and put it on medication, and given it shock treatment."

The donuts are served by women wearing nurses uniforms and children patrons are encouraged to sit in a "padded cell" for photographs while wearing a straightjacket.

"This is the most egregious example of negligent consumerism that continues to promote stereotypes and discrimination in our society," said NAMI California Director Grace McAndrews. "You don't see malt shops called the "Heart Attack Café" or tobacco shops called "Cancer Time". When you stigmatize mental illness and shame consumers, those that need help are too afraid to seek it. And then people die."

The donut shop offers products called Psycho, the Bipolar, Massive Head Trauma, and the Cracker Attacker. "When you consider the number of American troops returning from combat, with record numbers of suicides due to massive head trauma, it's not a funny thing," McAndrews added. "Ask a soldier how he feels about that donut."

The California Foundation for Independent Living Centers (CFILC) has already lodged a complaint with state representatives and public agencies. "We believe that this type of branding is exactly what the stigma and discrimination activities of the MHSA were intended to combat," said CFILC Executive Director Teresa Favuzzi.

According to the Mayo Clinic, stigmas exist because people believe mental illness is "not the same as a medical or physical illness". People discriminate against consumers, believing that biological or environmental conditions are "all in their heads", assuming that people choose to remain ill, or are simply weak and lazy.

Consequently, under the lash of stigma, sufferers refuse diagnosis or treatment, fearing loss of jobs or family, pretending as if nothing is wrong, or are subject to housing discrimination and harassment. Only last year did Congress pass legislation ensuring that health insurance for people suffering from mental illness is offered in parity with coverage for individuals for other health ailments and diseases.

For years, NAMI has led the way in the fight against harmful stereotypes and stigma.

"To simply say that the owners of this donut shop are ignorant doesn't do justice to the irreparable harms they cause when they train young people to laugh at those who suffer," McAndrews added. "Mental illness is not something to joke about in the name of cheap fat and sugar."

Source: NAMI California"

>:O >:O >:O]]> Dini Depression & BipolarFri, 14 Aug 2009 00:55:35 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116242,116242#msg-116242 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,116242,116242#msg-116242My therapist suggested that they are finding out that it is helpful to some people. I've been taking it for about a month but up here in the cold northeast spring is finally coming so I am not sure if it is the weather or the Vitamins or probably a combination of both. Just looking for thoughts or web sites I can check out. Thanks]]> Annette Depression & BipolarSun, 19 Jul 2009 15:09:54 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,115910,115910#msg-115910 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,115910,115910#msg-115910------------------------------------------

AN ACCOUNT OF
MY BIPOLAR DISORDER

A 66 YEAR CONTEXT:
October 1943 To February 2009

BY

RON PRICE
George Town Tasmania Australia
(83 Pages: Font 14—31,000 words)

1. Preamble and Introduction:

1.1 This is a longitudinal, retrospective account going back to my conception in October 1943. I make reference to a genetic predisposition to bipolar disorder(BPD) due to a family history of affective disorder in a first-degree relative, my mother(1904-1978). She had BPD, although her disability was never given that medical diagnosis. About half of all patients with BPD have one parent who also has a mood disorder. There is, therefore, a clinical significance in my mother’s mood disorder in the diagnosis of my own BPD. The high heritability of BPD has been well documented through familial incidence, twin, and adoption studies. There is an unquestionable justification for the inclusion of my family in my understanding of BPD. No specific gene has yet been identified as the one "bipolar gene." It appears likely that BPD is caused by the presence of multiple genes conferring susceptibility to BPD when combined with psychosocial stressors. I make this point as an opening remark and pass on to my story.

1.2 My account also provides a statement of my most recent experiences in the last two years, 2007-2009, with manic-depression(MD) or BPD as it has come to be called in recent years. Some prospective analysis of my illness is also included with the view to @#$%& potential long-term strategies, appropriate lifestyle choices and activities in which to engage in the years ahead. For the most part, though, this account, this statement I have written here in some 31,000 words is an outline, a description, of this partially genetic-family-based illness and my experience with it throughout my life.

1.3 Some of the personal context for this illness over the lifespan in my private and public life, in the relationships to my family of birth and my two families of marriage, in my employment life and now in my retirement are discussed in this document. I include some of what seems to me my major and relevant: (a) personal circumstances as they relate to my values, beliefs and attitudes on the one hand--what some might call my religion as defined in a broad sense; (b) family circumstances; for example, my parents’ life and my wife’s illness; (c) employment circumstances involving as they did: (i) stress, (ii) movement from place to place and (iii) my sense of identity and meaning; (d) a range of other aspects of my day-to-day life and their wider socio-historical setting and (e) some details on other aspects of my medical condition to help provide a wider context for this BPD in the last two years.

1.4 This lengthy account will hopefully provide mental health sufferers, clients or consumers, as they are now variously called these days, with: (i) a more adequate information base to make some comparisons and contrasts with their own situation, their own predicament whatever it may be, (ii) some helpful general knowledge and understanding and (iii) some useful techniques in assisting them to cope with and sort out problems associated with their particular form of mental illness or some other traumatized disorder that affects their body, their spirit and their soul.
------------------------INSTALMENT #2 TO COME LATER AFTER FEEDBACK----------------------------]]> RonPrice Depression & BipolarTue, 07 Apr 2009 16:45:13 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,115504,115504#msg-115504 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,115504,115504#msg-115504
Does an education, and the more intelligence you acquire lead to carrying the load of the world around with you? I definately believe so. It's more dificult for the eltist and people with power and material belongings to let go.

The other thing I've noticed in this recessive times, is that loss of job gives one a desperation which has no bounds. Why so? Have not these people ever lived out of a suitcase? Some are so depressed, they give up and take their family with them. There's nothing honorable or memorable in that. Pull yourself up by your bootstraps and carry on regardless. But leave those deep thinking books and material alone which includes the daily news of disrepair.

The problem with education and intelligence, it's only good while it works for you. Learning and wanting to know more, is addicting and can be depressing like finding a ceiling with your golf game.

Kudos, G]]> Gregg Depression & BipolarTue, 17 Feb 2009 10:34:18 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,115138,115138#msg-115138 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,115138,115138#msg-115138
Do any of you have suggestions for coping with Christmas depression - this is new to me and I have to tell you that depression has taken up a lot of my life in the last few years and I am not happy that the depression has invaded my Christmas! I welcome suggestions or even commiserating - tell me your stories and your coping ideas please.]]> Annette Depression & BipolarThu, 29 Jan 2009 15:32:03 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114984,114984#msg-114984 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114984,114984#msg-114984
The counselor and I also talked about how the holiday went with my irritating sister at my house. And that went very well - I discovered that sister is basically harmless and shallow. If I wouldn't want her to change me then I cannot expect her to want to be changed by me. Seems simple enough but I had built up so much anger over how she was when my mother was ill I could not see this simple fact. So we kept it light and the holiday went very smoothly and now I don't have to see her for another year.

This therapist is really helping me sort things out! It is so good to have hit it off with a new therapist from the beginning.

I encourage anyone with depression or anxiety to go to therapy and if the first therapist does not meet your needs do not give up - find another. I know this is exhausting at a time when you feel you have nothing to give but it is worth it to save yourself! But also bear in mind that sometimes therapist point out things about your thinking that may upset you - doesn't mean they are wrong just giving another viewpoint!]]> Annette Depression & BipolarWed, 17 Dec 2008 15:00:40 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114642,114642#msg-114642 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114642,114642#msg-114642
I've just started seeing a new therapist, Still having some trouble from my big depression crash in Sept. I am on new meds and they were just adjusted up a bit - I actually am starting to feel more like my old self but seeing a psychiatrist to work out the stuff that meds can't quite fix. Only met with her once but we clicked so I am hopeful that she will be good for me. She asked me to check out a book on cognitive therapy by David Burns. I just bought it yesterday and it makes some pretty interesting claims about how some people can actually go off their meds by following cognitive therapy treatment. I have been on anti depressants for several years now and if anyone has had this kind of luck I would be really interested in hearing your story!

I will let you know how things are going. This first weeks session was just about getting some background and medical history etc. I meet with her again next Thursday and will check in again.]]> Annette Depression & BipolarSun, 08 Mar 2009 23:25:37 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114576,114576#msg-114576 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114576,114576#msg-114576I did not bother to try and stop my Depression. I ended up in one of the Electric Shock Chambers. Not a pretty story but true. If you feel depressed and no doubt addicted to something or other-do something about it. Do not wait.]]> alanb Depression & BipolarSat, 06 Dec 2008 13:56:50 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114381,114381#msg-114381 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114381,114381#msg-114381 Manny Depression & BipolarSat, 06 Dec 2008 13:58:56 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114111,114111#msg-114111 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,114111,114111#msg-114111
Just wanted to bring up something that has turned out to be very important to me. I have been on meds for depression for a long time. I firmly believe this is a chemical imbalance in me which can be aggravated by events. Various times through the years I have needed to be in therapy and have found great insight and comfort from it but other times it is not associated with a particular event just life! Anyway about 4 weeks ago my depression caved in on me and I was almost totally unable to function. To go back a few months my doctor changed my antidepressants and I thought I was doing ok but when this happened I realized that I have no ability to judge how I am being affected. My husband said after the crash that he assumed work was overwhelming me, I am in Human Services and with the economy being what it is we are being bombarded with new applicants etc so it was a reasonable assumption. As he is also a social worker he felt bad that he did not realize how bad it was but again we are both swamped and he sees me daily - obviously - and sometimes these depression valleys are hard to track on a day to day basis.

So my doctor weaned me off the drug I had been on (Lexapro) and put me on Cymbalta. I am only 3 weeks into the new drug and already can feel the difference.

What I really want to say is if someone in your life suffers from depression and you notice things that seem to be out of the norm - please bring it up. If you must say it more than once please do it. I have no issues with my depression and will not fault anyone for asking if I seem to be not as well as I could be. Care enough to talk to someone. I am also aware that some people do not want to hear it but don't give up - it is too easy to lose someone to this terrible disease!

Thanks all!]]> Annette Depression & BipolarMon, 27 Oct 2008 16:28:44 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,113811,113811#msg-113811 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,113811,113811#msg-113811
Some of his behaviours included:

-Committing suicide, as noted.

-Bouts of rage, when he would break things and punch holes in the wall. He would only break his things. His stereo, fish tank, walkman, etc.

-He never fit in at school, always acted like the class clown, had trouble making friends.

-He would go jogging for hours at a time. He played football in the fall, wrestling in the spring, baseball, soccer, weight lifting, bicycling. Always extremely active. He was a tremendous athlete.

-He would try hard in school but almost always get a failing grade.

-He had a hard time writing. I don't mean expressing himself or coming up with ideas. I mean with the actual physical act of writing. He wrote slowly and his handwriting looked awkward.

- He was obsessive about certain things. Like about saving money - he would not spend a dime of his own money on himself and would not let any one else spend money on him either. Like about health and nutrition - he would not put any alcohol or drugs in his body, not even aspirin, and was fanatic about what he would and wouldn't eat. Yet sometimes he would binge and eat an incredible amount of food.

-He was homeless for a time.

-He was hard to be around. He was always saying the wrong thing, the slightly inappropriate thing, the irritating thing. On a few occasions, when he had to change his clothes, he just did so in public.

-He would do anything, give up anything, to help someone else. But he was totally destructive to himself, often having dangerous mishaps.

-He refused to be given Xmas or birthday gifts. He refused to have anyone fly out to visit him when he was living in another state.]]> Frances Depression & BipolarMon, 05 Jan 2009 09:03:21 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,113722,113722#msg-113722 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,113722,113722#msg-113722
Quick background:

Last year, at just about this time, I was taken to a psych ward for a 72 hour hold. This is standard protocol,at least where I am, if a police officer is witness to your suicidal ideations. Unfortunately, that was the case for me. I live in a VERY small community so pretty much everyone knows this happened.

So this leads us to a couple of months ago. While I was at our local gym, an acquaintance asked me if I am on antidepressants. I told her yes, and we started talking a little bit about her problems. She had recently felt very bad and went to our local GP to get meds. She was more or less asking about side effects, etc. Since then when I see her, I always ask how she is doing. Not just that "going through the motions" asking, but the really wanting to know asking with eye contact!

Two nights ago, when I walked into the gym, she was there. She looked pretty down. She started talking about general things, and the conversation ended up turning to how bad she is feeling. She kept saying "I am just so tired!" This immediately brought tears to my eyes because that is exactly how I felt and what I kept telling everyone this time last year! I really tried to connect with her and let her know I REALLY know how she feels, not just trying know. I HAVE BEEN THERE! My heart was absolutely breaking for her because I know how hopeless I felt and she seemed to be in the same place I was.

Later that evening she texted me to say thanks for talking to her. I just reinforced that I am here and that I really understand. The next morning I texted her to just let her know I was thinking about her. When I saw her last night at the gym, she was on her cell phone the whole time. I am worried that now she is maybe feeling embarrassed for what she said. I know that it was always hard for me to face people after what I had been through.

I just want to hear ANY and ALL thoughts. I was worried I should have called the doctor that prescribed her meds, since we know each other. I don't know what I should do. I just know that I kept my feelings from people out of shame, and eventually I just blew. That's how I ended up in the hospital. (Which by the way was probably a good thing in the long run.) Anyway,I know I am rambling. I am just so worried about her and wish I could do something more for her. I know the terrible darkness she is feeling and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. (And that is a really bad person!)

Thanks!
C1]]> chronic1 Depression & BipolarSun, 21 Sep 2008 13:26:04 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,113621,113621#msg-113621 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,113621,113621#msg-113621I have mentioned to my T that I was worried that I would be doing this work on myself and suddenly I would look around and my husband would be somewhere behind me in the distance. That is kind of what has happened. We are really having a difficult time communicating. In addition, with my meds killing my libido, we are not having the physical connection either. My T told me that I need to be more understanding to his needs and find a way to "participate" in his release. This didn't strike me very well. And of course my husband ran with that! Not paying attention to her telling him he needs to understand that I am not in the frame of mind to want intercourse right now. (Stress, miscarriage, change of meds, etc)
Anyway, I called my psych today and will be able to see her in two weeks. In the meantime, my meds seem to have numbed me. I don't feel anything, no energy, no nothing. BLAH! This is almost as bad as being depressed. I just feel nothing really, I feel like a robot going through the necessary motions, with not E-motions. Kinda surreal at times.
BLAH BLAH BLAH]]> chronic1 Depression & BipolarSun, 05 Jul 2009 19:33:10 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112904,112904#msg-112904 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112904,112904#msg-112904this is quite a difficult subject to speak about i have just found that my husband has scratched words into his arm he has been off work for nearly 3 yrs and suffers with fibromyalgia really bad i am his main carer and i dont know what to do we are both in our 30's and what i thought was a happy marriage on both parts only been married a year he speaks on web sites specially for his condition but i dont so just came across this site any suggestions would be great he also has been compleatly out of his tree for the past 2 days on god knows what not sure how to approach all this]]> orchid1 Depression & BipolarTue, 16 Sep 2008 18:31:51 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112838,112838#msg-112838 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112838,112838#msg-112838 Jessica.. Depression & BipolarTue, 09 Sep 2008 15:21:41 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112641,112641#msg-112641 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112641,112641#msg-112641 selfhelpblogger Depression & BipolarSat, 06 Dec 2008 13:56:11 -0800 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112397,112397#msg-112397 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112397,112397#msg-112397He cannot hear any one advice and he still using drug...
I pray god for his recovery, not only for but also for people like him..

please pray for him..

Thanks,

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Addiction Recovery Nevada]]> alex4545 Depression & BipolarFri, 08 Aug 2008 10:32:29 -0700 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112060,112060#msg-112060 http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/phorum/read.php?68,112060,112060#msg-112060
Some pretty serious depressive issues have surfaced.

My thinking patterns are negative. I'm thinking that no
matter what decision I make it is the wrong one.

This showed up recently when I wasn't sure if attending a
support group was right or not. I drove myself there but
chickened out and never got out of the car.

Another instance of this came when I was invited to
a revival at a church. I never went again for lack of
knowing if it was the right thing or not.

All I really seem to do is sit around the house and
cry uncontrollably.

I think most of this is because of how for the last 20 years
my life has been controlled by opposing forces in my life.
Even my decision making.

Who to listen to, When to keep my mouth shut and taking initiative is
the wrong idea for me. Being treated like a child.

I am trying so hard not to be a victim however, the extreme circumstances
that have overtaken my life may make it more difficult than I ever imagined.]]> jazzyguy Depression & BipolarSat, 30 Aug 2008 05:30:00 -0700